How much more compelling does this expanding body of evidence and testimonials need to be here that proves how delusional you are before you capitulate?

You even shoot yourself in the foot with your pathetic desperation to defend yourself by stating that PMs can be easily "edited" because that would ALSO mean that any PMs you allegedly have of mine could just as easily be your own fabrications.

Every time someone throws reason and clear evidence at your delusions, you fabricate new ones or try to distract attention away from yourself in defense.

I'd ask you why you can't just surrender and admit to your faults, and accept the mirror that more and more people are putting in front of you, but I'm convinced that there's something else inside you that doesn't allow you to have a choice in the matter.

Perhaps you're being provided by the Universe right now for the rest of us to see how one can be controlled by inner forces unbeknowst to them so that we may all develop a more keen awareness to prevent this happening to ourselves?

Whatever the Truth behind your drama is, I hope that somehow you become aware of it and get control of your self and your life so that you stop spreading your poisonous misery to others.

Suzi.

Really?

Please tell me you are being sarcastic. Marley and Cath are in a full-blown cat-scratching fight at this point LOL

Muchas gracias Dave for considering that point. You may be right in that your post opened a portal of sorts to a dimension of denser energies that have found sympathetic vibrations in us all.

However, I think that Cathy has made it quite clear that her issues with me go back long before this. When I commented on your post, I was just trying to take what I felt was some undeserved heat off of you from Cathy and to call her on her comments to you because I felt they were inappropriately antagonistic. I wasn't trying to attack Cathy, just call her on her behavior as she takes on the authority to do for so many others. Obviously this set off a bomb that she buried in her "garden" before she diffused it.

Interesting that you bring up the correlation to your own thread though because I've definitely been wrestling with my own family issues. There's a ton of past issues that I'm currently dialoguing with my mother about and working towards completion on. I'm grateful that I can at least write back and forth with her and that she wants to get joint counseling. Some families are so wounded that there's a perpetual stand-off where no one wants to take the first step.

Anyway, I hope you're finding some peace and assurance in your own journey over there. You're always welcome to unload and process with me if you want. The resonance I spoke of about the thread you started tells me we may have much to relate about and share wisdom and support on :o)

And thank you Suzi for your acknowledgment. Honestly, it's been very challenging for me to not shift this situation with Cathy down a few degrees into greater density. I'm probably giving all of this way more energy than necessary and should just not respond to Cathy at all, but the truth is, while I feel anger and frustration over her persistent attacks and her commitment to maintaining her illusions, I welcome the opportunity to develop my ability to see things for what they are rather than how my Ego wants to see it.

I'm essentially compelled to help dispel all suffering in the world, and that includes my own. I've seen how letting my Ego take control has only led to reaction and suffering that tends to spread out to others. Such experience has taught me how to recognize it in others. This is where "projection" differs from "identification" or "recognition" as "projections" are usually about what's still incomplete in someone and still seeking to manifest on the outside to be grappled with.

That being said, I want to make it clear to everyone that I find it a very fine line between having a clear intuition and a muddled imagination, and I maintain skepticism with *myself* regarding this constantly and check in with others like Shesha who have long worked with me in learning how to discern between trusting my intuition and falling prey to my Ego. I will never say that I have "mastered" my Ego, because I've found that it's all too common to be doing it's will and seeing what it wants me to see when I'm feeling perfectly confident in my intuition.

You ask about becoming a "loving force". First, I would hesitate to say that I'm a loving "force". I assume that I still carry much ego that's driven by still unconscious wounds that give rise to actions or intentions I may not be aware of. I assume that it is essential to keep myself in check as a matter of routine through the help of others. In other words, I don't think I can be my own mirror -at least not all the time.

Nonetheless, I grew up with the proverb of "Do unto others as you'd have them do unto you". If you want to be loved, you have to love. If you want to be forgiven you have to forgive. If you want respect, you must give it. If you want to be trusted, you must trust others. If you want someone to stop you from hurting yourself or others or free you from a prison of your own making in ignorance, you must do the same for others if and when you can.

As for who or what helped me to learn, I have been blessed with a long line of teachers that range from my mother and father to friends and strangers of all walks of life. I even learn by watching movies or reading books. And, somewhere inside, there has also been a consciousness that has spoken to me in my darkest and brightest of moments -nurturing and assuring me when I'm scared, soothing me when I'm angry or bitter, and praising me when I do good things.

As Mahatma Gandhi said: "You must be the change you wish to see in the world".

I know I don't exemplify that all the time, and that my Ego gets the best of me and compels me to speak sharply. For that I do my best to be aware and take responsibility so that my intentions don't misfire and cause confusion or harm.